Excerpts From A Note To A Dear Friend And About Moving On
Changing the status quo is scary when for years you have relied on routines and things as a crutch...
That being said, I woke up this morning, and feel like I'm in this beautiful house, there is no practical reason why I should want change, to many, I have this ideal lifestyle, but inside this existence is an empty shell, a hollow one, going through the motions. But it (change) feels inexorable now, like inspite of my fears, anxiety there is no way back...
... It is like King Theoden in Lord of The Rings, who restricts himself, because he believes he cannot be anything other than what he has been reduced to. He has to have his bondage broken in order to be set free.
In a similar way it's like using crutches for a broken leg that healed a long time since, because you believe you cannot walk unaided without them. You fear you will not cope, but all you are really doing is dying inside because of your own restrictions, fears and anxiety. How to bear the end of your days, feeling burnt and dead on the inside when you had your potential to walk into. The potential God gave you.
That was poetic... [Friend's name removed here] you are the most special person God ever brought into my life... We have held each others' hands at times when we were at our most vulnerable and now we have our destinies to walk into, and I always will be there for you even if I am not always as geographically close.
This is the love of Heaven and angels, not of earthly things, because,we were both destined in Heaven to pull each other into new phases in our lives and to do so with compassion, unconditional love, tears and under God's tender care.
Love Louise
xx
That being said, I woke up this morning, and feel like I'm in this beautiful house, there is no practical reason why I should want change, to many, I have this ideal lifestyle, but inside this existence is an empty shell, a hollow one, going through the motions. But it (change) feels inexorable now, like inspite of my fears, anxiety there is no way back...
... It is like King Theoden in Lord of The Rings, who restricts himself, because he believes he cannot be anything other than what he has been reduced to. He has to have his bondage broken in order to be set free.
In a similar way it's like using crutches for a broken leg that healed a long time since, because you believe you cannot walk unaided without them. You fear you will not cope, but all you are really doing is dying inside because of your own restrictions, fears and anxiety. How to bear the end of your days, feeling burnt and dead on the inside when you had your potential to walk into. The potential God gave you.
That was poetic... [Friend's name removed here] you are the most special person God ever brought into my life... We have held each others' hands at times when we were at our most vulnerable and now we have our destinies to walk into, and I always will be there for you even if I am not always as geographically close.
This is the love of Heaven and angels, not of earthly things, because,we were both destined in Heaven to pull each other into new phases in our lives and to do so with compassion, unconditional love, tears and under God's tender care.
Love Louise
xx
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